What's in a name, and losing weight?

Well we have had the hardest time trying to find a name for our little girl that will soon be here. When we first found out thatI was pregnant, we thought for sure we were having a boy. Since we thought this we didn't give much thought to a girl's name. So when we found out we were expecting a baby girl, we were thrown for a loop. We came up with several names, and I do mean SEVERAL names. We would pick a top 5 and got from there. We would find a name and then find a reason to hate it. lol. This happened A LOT! We probably went through 10-15 names. lol. We had a few guidelines the name had to meet. Such as: It had to be unique, Since my name is so common, I wanted our daughters to be uncommon. Then it couldn't have a stupid nickname that went to it, we found lots of names we liked, but hated he nicknames for them. It had to be something we both agreed on. I could never pick a name that I loved, but Dave didn't, it would bother me. So after all that we finally picked a name, and wouldn't tell people until recently. I find that it's harder to tell us you don't like the name if we have for sure picked it, then just saying were considering it. Lol. I know, i'm weird. So the name we have decided, and I could care less if you like it or don't like it, is....
Kendall Nicole Bland
BTW she is now 5 pounds 11 ounces, which is in the 50th percentile. Oh and I have lost 6 pounds! I don't understand. I'm not trying to lose weight at all. I'm just on this diet gestational diabetes diet, wich is making me lose weight. So if you get technical with all the losing weight i've done, I have not gained a single pound since I got pregnant. Crazy! I might even be smaller after I have her, than I was when I got pregnant! Oh and this losing weight thing is not affecting, she is gaining weight like she should, and is doing great.

1 year anniversary of my miscarriage

It has been 1 year to the day since I had the miscarriage. I'm not sure how to feel today, except I know that I have had a very emotional and grumpy day so far. I Feel like I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I was grumpy paying bills, and therfor stressed afterwards, because the medical bills keep piling up and for some reason, the stupid hospital won't work with you very well with payments. Then I have other obligations that cost money, that are frustrating, and then theres the 1 year ann. of the miscarriage. I think that; that fact is making it hard to handle all these emotions today. I feel sadness for the loss of my baby, but I know I will be with him/her one day if we live rightously.
Also, I have been SO extrememly blessed since then. I am now carrying our daughter who I love more than anything. She is such a blessing. We will meet her very soon. Our lives aren't easy, but we always manage to make it through the rough patches, and I know that it's because of our faith in our Heavenly Father, and our love for all he has done for us, with the atonement. I Know that everything is going to work out with this pregnancy and that we will have our little girl in our lives soon, and be able to raise her to be a virtuous daughter of God. I Just need to get through today, as best as I can, so far it has involved tears, and stress, but hopefully it will go better. I have a great support system from my husband, and he has calmed me down. I love him so much, he is always there for me, and I know that he is going to be a great father.

Only 43 days left!

Well lately we have been feeling our little girl move/kick so much more these days. It's so exciting. We have been going for fetal monitoring weekly and will continue to do so until she is born. She has been a little stubborn in these appointments. She defienetly has a mind of her own. :) Next week we get an ultrasound to see how big she is getting.
I'm now on 20 units of insulin at bedtime, which seems to be working. I'm trying hard to keep my blood sugar in check, which seems to be working. I found out at my last doctors appointment that I have actually only gained 6 POUNDS this entire pregnancy! Which seems to be ok, and obviously most of that is the baby. I seem to have lost weight like every other appointment, which is crazy. My doctor is not concerned about the lack of weight gain, since I could stand to lose weight.
I will be 34 weeks tomorrow! I have only 43 days left! I can't believe how close we are getting to meeting our baby girl! We can't wait!
This weekend is my baby shower. I'm so excited for it! :) I don't know much of whats going on at it, since my mom won't tell me, but I know its going to be fun! Anywho, thats what's been going on. I will post pictures of it afterwards.

32 Weeks & Valentines Day

So I'm 32 weeks today! I can't believe it! Dave and I have been getting so excited. We can't wait to meet her. We wonder who shes going to take after. Is she going to have darker skin with brown hair, or fair skin with blonde or strawberry blonde hair! We go into her room, a.k.a. the nursrey, everyday and look at what weve done to it and still plan on doing to it.
Well I now have to go in every week for fetal monitoring, and I am on Insulin overnight. I have to give myself a shot in my stomach around 10:30 everynight. It kinda sucks, but what can you do? The last time they checked, her weight was 3 pnds, 8 oz. Which is in the 53rd percintile. So thats good, hopefully wih the insulin and diet i'm on she wont get to large to deliver vaginally. We took a tour of the hospital last saturday where I will be giving birth to her. It just made me even more excited. All the rooms I will be in are private, so i'm super happy about that. We finally go our tax return back so we plan on buying me the things I will need in the hospital, and after we bring baby home!
Oh yeah yesterday was Valentines day. I usually hate this day, becuase of all the hype it gets. But yesterday was amazing. So Dave and I went out last saurday celebrating this holiday since we knew he had to work Tuesday, which was fine, he baught me my favorite flower, pink roses and i got him loads of candy. It was fine. So yesterday, when he is leaving i'm feeling particularly down, (stupid pregnancy hormones) and I now know he could obviously tell. So I decide tot take a nap, and like an hour later i get a text from him asking me out for dinner. I was like "what?" and then I said "no", because then he would be taking no pay for the day, and he said "you really going to say no?" I said "well no, i guess not, yeah i'll go, but i'm very confused, where are you?" Dave says "just go get ready, i'm on my way home." At this point im confused and super excited! So he gets home and says we need to go. Then we show up at the movies and he buys tickets to The Vow, which I have been wanting to see since he came out recently! I assumed I would just have to rent it on red box, because he doesn't like movies like that. Anyway, then we went to dinner at Chili's, and it was a really relaxing night. He is so sweet! He never surprises me and so I was very happy that he did. It was a nice evening and I just know that i'm truly blessed with an amazing husband, who I know is going to be a wonderful father!

Dealing with a few bumps in the road.

I'm now 29 weeks and in my third trimester! I can't believe i'm only 11 weeks away from having this little girl! Im doing well, super tired though. At my last appointment her heartbeat was 135! I loved listeningto her heartbeat! I'm down to 2 appointments a month or every other week. Pregnancy life has certainly changed since I was 26 weeks. I was Diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes and Anemia. I'm taking an Iron supplement along with my prenantal for the anemia, and have changed my entire life for the GD. I have had to change my diet, and eating schedule. I have to eat 6 times a day, 3 meals, and 3 snacks. I cut out most carbs. I can only have a certain amount for each meal/snack. It's more annoying than anything, but I have lost 5 pounds in 2 weeks, so thats interesting. Then I have to test my blood sugar 4 times a day! That is absolutely the worst part of it. My fingers are not doing so well from all the poking! I have to draw it first thing in the morning and an hour after each main meal. Argg! I hate it, but whatever. My motivation is of course my little girls health. I want to be healthy for her. I'm also now considered a high risk pregnancy, so I will start seeing that doctor as well as my obgyn for the rest of my pregnancy. I get frustrated sometimes not being able to eat a freaken cookie or a piece of fruit. (Fruit are very high in carbs, I had to cut down on fruit! Which is bad because that is like what I have been craving!) Anywho thats how baby and I are doing. Dave and I got our crib and other furniture set up in the nursery! We are super excited for it! Just can't wait for everything to come together.

26 weeks and counting...

So yesterday I had my last monthly appointment, and my last ultrasoud for now. My baby girl was finally able to cooperate, and they were able to get the last measurements they needed. The coolest thing at the ultrasound appointment was that when I felt her inside I could see it on the monitor! It was so cool! She is in a breach position which is normal for now, but my doctor later told me that is why Dave probably hasn't been able to feel her yet, because it's harder to feel the kicks on the outside down lower. We were both disappointed by that, oh well at least she is doing well. She is 2 pnds 2 oz, and heartrate was 126. I also had the glucose done yesterday, so just waiting to see of he calls us Monday with bad results, or no call means good results. Everything is going well, and we scheduled all of our remaining appointments. Only 8 left! and 3 of those are weekly! Were getting so excited, but nervous too. We dont have like anything purchased, we know those items we are going to buy, just been saving up to buy them. I'm doing well. I'm tired alot, and have the worst bed ever, so I have some back pains, but othere than that I can't complain. I LOVE to feel her kick. When she hears Daves voice, and he talks to her she moves even more! We are absolutley blessed, and grateful for all that we have. I've noticed my prayers have gotten much linger with all the thanks I'm giving, we just have so much to be grateful for. By the Way if you read this can you please pray for my cousins baby, he was born with major heart problems, and has less that 5% to NOT need a heart transplant. He is less than a month old, and is so fragile. Also for my sister-n-law. Her bile going to to her liver from her galbladder has clogged up and can cause her baby boy to be stillborn. They will induce her early by 2 weeks, but are constantly checking on the baby. The weird thing is that this issue only makes her itch A LOT, otherwise it has no effect on her, but can cause problems for baby. Please just pray for them of you can.

Kicks and all kinds of updates.

Well I'm now 23 weeks (5 months 3 weeks). I can't believe how fast time has gone by. I knew the holidays would make it seems faster, but I didn't realize how fast. Thanksgiving was good. My parents went to Utah to visit family there for thanksgiving, so thanksgiving dinner was left to my sister and I. We split the work pretty even, and we invited an older couple from our church, like we do every holiday. They have much family, so it's kinda tradition now. Also a woman and here daughter from Devens work, that is investigating the church. We had way to much food and way to many pies, we had leftovers for days. My mom's mom is visiting from Arizona, she recently had a stroke, and my parents brought her back her for Chritmas. It's nice to see her. I feel sad though, because I dont think she will be able to ever come back here again to meet my baby girl after she is born. I feel like niether grandmother will get to meet her on this earth, due to the poor health they are both in. I'm comforted by the fact that they will one day meet her after this life on earth is over. Anywho... I FINALLY felt our little girl kick for the first time, It was Monday, November 28th. Luckily Dave was home so he could share that joy with me. (He has every Monday off right now and every Saturday off as well) I have been felling her all the time and I LOVE IT! if im sitting down, or standing, I wont move from that posotion until she stops, because I want to feel her move as long as I can. Silly, I know. Dave gets so frustrated that he can't feel her kicks yet. I know he will soon, I have felt some random kicks that I can feel on the outside. I recently had a doctors appointment last friday, and we had another ultrasound, because our little girl is already stubborn and wont move the ways the techs need her to. And since she was difficult again we have another one scheduled for the beggining of Janruary. Our baby girl is healthy though, her heartrate is 128, and she is 1 pound 2 ounces, Is what I believe he said. Thats all that matters to me that she is healthy and doing well. I try my best to make sure nothing I do harms her. I am super careful walking as if not to fall, and I watch what I eat. I take the restrictions a little to far, instead of heating up lunchmeat, I dont eat it at all, and a bunch of other things.

So Thankful

I have to say that i'm one who usually thinks more about thanksgiving dinner than I do the true meaning of the holiday, which is being thankful. This year I have to say that I have never been more thankful for what I have in my life and the blessings I have recieved this year. FIRST, I am pregnant. I couldn't be happier for this blessing, especially after how the year started with a miscarriage. I can't wait to meet our little girl, and pray several times a day thanking heavenly father for her, and that she may be well, growing inside of me. SECOND, I have the BEST husband in the world. He has been amazing through everything we go through together. He is there for me when I need him most, especially these days. He has picked up the slack, and I can't say enough how much I love and appreciate him. I would be broken without him. He is amazing. THIRD, of couse is the Gospel. I have to say that I was forced to grow spirtually this year with trials and a new calling. I love that my testimony has grown so much. I have so much faith in the Lord and his plan for Dave and I, and I just want to serve him and be a loving daughter of God. FOURTH, is my family. I love them, even though we do not always agree. My mom and dad especially have been supportive to me in my times of need. I am grateful to have them and other family so close. I obviously have so much more i'm thankful for but, I don't have any desire to write everything down, I would be on here till my fingers fell off from typing to much. Anyways the moral is I'm so very THANKFUL for all I have.

18 weeks with a SURPRISE!!

Yup.... We are having a girl. We went in for our first ultrasound yesterday, and that was the news we got. We are shocked! We thought for sure we were having a boy, and we had everybody else convinced as well, except for the ultrasound technician. Dave was like are you sure it's a girl, how accurate are these things?! lol she was like i'm pretty sure. Dave and I were sort of disappointed just because we just wern't expecting it. I got over it qiuckly, it took Dave about 24 hours to come around. As soon as that little girl is born, he will be wrapped around her little fingers. Anywho, our girl was being a little stubborn and didn't want to give the woman good shots of her face and heart so we have to go back in a month, but everything looks good, her heartbeat is normal, and her other organs look great. During the the appointment our girl was moving her arm a ton, as if waving. :) Now we just have to change everything we were planning to buy since we are now having a girl!

Yup! I'm Pregnant!

So, we are now ready to tell people that we are pregnant! I'm 14 weeks, but will be 15 weeks tomorrow. I am due April 11th. We have had 2 doctors appointments, and have felt more satisfaction that everything is going ok. Because of what happened last time, we decided to wait longer to tell people this time around. But our doctor is been giving postive news and we have faith that everything will work out with this pregnancy. Things have defenetly been different this time around. I have actually thrown up about 8-10 times, not to bad, I have had tender breasts (sorry if thats TMI), unfortunetly more migraines and headaches than normal for me, as they call it pregnancy brain; lol I cant remember anything these days. If i forget what something is called I call it a thingamabob. Dave laughs at me about that, and i'm defenetly showing, something random is I actually lost 3 pnds, between my 2 appointments, but my belly has gotten bigger. My explanation is that me appitite is crazy. I'm not so hungry in the morning, by lunch I barely eat, but by dinner my appitite is back to normal, and in between those meals I have some snacks, such fruit, yogurt (which I hate), granola bar, etc... That is how my pregancy is different than last time, but different in the best possible ways. We CAN'T wait to be parents!! All Dave and I want to do is buy baby stuff! We should know what we are having in December. I'll have some updates in like 3 weeks. Untill then...

Our 5 Year Anniversary

In honor of our 5 year anniversary coming up on October 16th, I've decided to put some of my favorite wedding pictures. I hope you enjoy.

A New Chapter: Stay at Home Wife.

It has been a few months since I have been on here. Well I quit my job of 2 years, as a waitress in May. I just felt like it was time. I just wanted that stress to be gone. I miss my friends there very much. So now i'm enjoying being a stay at home wife. (My husband hates the term housewife!) I have personally felt like I lost all sense of being a good wife. Since I have quit, I have been cooking a lot. I use to cook a lot and I enjoyed it very much. I make lunch's almost everyday for my husband and myself. He works a night shift, thats why I make lunch, not dinners. I have to say Dave is all for it! I have really learned to enjoy cooking again. I have not found a hobby to keep myself occupied yet, but i'm sure I will soon. I love having energy to do the little sweet things for my husband, that I ue to do. Such as making his lunch, making sure his work clothes are washed, and other small things. I also have been enjoying spending time with family, and relaxing. Dave and I spent our first 4th of July together since we have moved here! We spent the day with my parents, and my sister's family. We all went to a ward pancake breakfast, then we went to the town's parade. The weather was great then. Then we went to a BBQ at a friends house where the humidity was awful! We then enjoyed going to the Rodeo, and watching the fireworks show there. It was a fun, but HOT day. Thats all for now.

Getting through it. Not over it.

Where to begin.... Well I went in last Wednesday to have my blood drawn, so my hormones could be tested. They are finally back to normal after 3 weeks. Now we just have to wait for a normal cycle to come before we can start trying again. But now that i'm not pregnant I have been trying to take care of this rash thing on my foot/ankle, that I have had for over 2 years. I have taken over the counter creams, thinking it was a fungus. Unfortunetly that didn't work. So I went to a doctor about a year ago, and was given several things to try to make it go away, none of them working. Then we got insurance and jumped at the chance to get pregnant, and while I was Pregnant, my foot bothered me so much, it itched, it was red, and puffy. It was awful, so when I had the miscarriege, I decided to get it taken care of for good, before we get pregnant. So I went to the doctor, who happens to got to my church. He gave me a topical dream that I have been using for 2 weeks now twice a day, and it seems to be worse, and itches just as bad. He doesn't think its fungul. So since it isn't wokring I need to go back, because he said that if it doesn't, he wants to do a biopsy on it to see what this is. So currently that is my situation with my foot. It will be a month this Wednesday since I have had my miscarriage. I'm still sad and get kinda depressed every other day or two. Its hard because I know several people who's babies are due around when mine would have been due, so when I see them or pictures, its hard not to be upset(sad). I figure once I get pregnant I will be much better, but until then I will work through this. I don't know why but every Sunday at church it hits me like a freight train, and my emotions get the best of me, and I cry. When someone just finds out that i am no longer pregnant, that is hard for me to explain it all over. I just wished everybody knew. I have relized its not getting over it, its getting through it. Like I have told people, I will get through this on my own time and in my own way. (BTW... My husband is a big support to me through this, he is my rock.) Anywho... That is how I am doing.

My Lost Pregnancy

It has been awhile since i have posted anything. I guess i have just been lazy about blogging. Well this all started in July of 2010.
Dave got hired on full-time at work!!! We were thrilled, we have been waiting for this for a long time. The reason for our excitement was better, vacation time, assurace of work, but most of all, MEDICAL INSURANCE!!! We have wanted to (how should i say this) extend our family, by adding a baby to the picture. we have been wanting this since we settled down in Mo. So then we found out we had to wait at least 3 months for it to be official (a.k.a we had to wait for the paper work to be all done).
So we started trying in November. And we found out i was pregnant in January. We were so excited! When the pregnancy test was positive i just cried out of joy. So that day I made an appointment with the doctor, but the appoinment wasn't untill I would be 9 weeks along. So then i just started reading What to expect When your expecting. I found this very informational, and I reading about how my baby was growing week by week. Then we went to our appointment Feb. 11, it was a Friday. I was so excited to be there, not only because I was meeting my doctor, but because I was so excited to be pregnant and to go to the doctors, and see other pregnant women. I felt like i was now part of this club, or group where people just looked at you and smiled because your pregnant. I liked being pregnant, yes theres the morning sicknees(for me an all day sickness), the fear of becoming a whale :), and so much more, but I liked all that, because I have been wanting this forever! So i didn't mind any of that stuff, I was excited for new pregnantcy symtoms! So I was called back to the doctors room and Dave went with me. We met his nurse, she was so nice. Then we met our doctor, who I was instantly comfortable. He was nice, gave all the answers we wanted to the MANY questions we had, he did a quick abdominal ultrasound to show us the baby, we couldn't see much but he pointed out the things he could. Then we found out the due date was Sept. 18th 2011. We left With huge smiles on our faces. It seemed so much more official now that we had seen the doctor, so we went to lunch with my mom and ran a few errands in town. On the way home we started calling our families, and friends. I even posted it on facebook. LOL. We were just so EXCITED!! Then a few days later i started to have minimal spotting, i freaked out immediatly. I called the on call nurse she told me a little was fine, and to take it easy the rest of the day, and to call my doctor the next day. So I did, i took it easy that day, i had to call into work, which always stresses me out to do. I stopped spotting before my husband had even come home from work, and I was relieved, I called my doctor the next day ,and some beeding was normal, but if more happens that we should go to the ER. They also said if I was going to miscarry, then there was nothing I could do to stop it, and that i should go on with life. So i did. I went back to work, and lived my life, and the fear of miscarriage left the front of my mind, and took it's place firmly in the back of my mind. I knew my next doctors app. was March 11. so i just said we'll see what happens, then, but my husband and I got so excited again. Then my sister-n-law had her baby Feb 27th, sunday. We were so excited to see the baby. So we decided to go see the baby when they got home on Tuesday, but first we had some errands to run, the main one going to BAbies R Us. We window shopped for about an hour. We had just recieved our income taxes back, and my husband wanted to start buying things then, but i just couldn't do it. I said that our app. was less than 2 weeks away we can come straight here afterwards if everything is alright. He agreed, so we saw my niece and I just couldn't wait for this to be us, new parents.
Then the next morning I discovered a large ammount of blood coming from me, with no associating cramps, I immedietly began to cry, I cried through my shower while I was getting ready, and up until we got on the freeway to go to the ER. We got there and my husband called his work and they excused him, so we checked in and waited an hour or so just to have my vitals read, and talk to a nurse further about what was going on. Then we were sent back to the waiting room for another 45 minutes. Then we went in to a room where I had to put on that stupid gown. I waited an about an hour for my doctor to come in she said I was going to have an ultrasound, and pelvic exam. Then we waited some more and hen a guy some to take my blood and i also had my vitals taken again, then i went up to to have the ultrasound done. She started to do an abdominal one, ane asked me how far along I was, I told her I was almost 12 weeks. She said she couldn't see much and was going to do a Vaginal ultrasound. Before she began, she said she would tell us if she could see anything she would let us know. It was unexpectedly painful, and lasted about 10 minutes. Then she said she was done, and hat the radiologists would look it over. Her not saying anything meant something was wrong, the results should take about an hour they said so we had to wait. Tears just started running down my face. Once back in the room I just broke down. Dave did his best to commort me. We waited, waited,they checked my vitals again, and then an hour passed and we waited more, then the doctor came in. She asked me how far along I was (why was everybody asking me this when I had already established almost 12 weeks)! She said that the fetus was the size as if i was only 6 weeks, and that they saw no heartbeat, but that if it was only 6 weeks, they probably wouldnt see a heartbeat. I was so confused. She said I was in limbo for a miscarriage (what the heck does that mean)! She did a pelvic exam, I had my vitals checked again she said she would send all this info to my doctor and that I should call them the next day. She gave me a note to take work off a few days, and I left more confused than when I went in there. we were there about 6 hours or so, and I had no real answer to if my baby was ok. I cried alot when we left, most of the night. Then first thing at 8 a.m when my doctors office opens I called and left a message with the nurse to call me back. She called an hour or so later, and explained that they had seen nothing were the fetus was, and that i did have a miscarriage. WHY DIDNT THEY TELL ME THIS LAST NIGHT!! I was devestated and upset that I was given false hope at the ER.
I went in later that afternoon to see my doctor, my mom came with me, (Dave had to work). When I step into that area i wanted to burst into tears, because I was surrounded by happy Pregnant people, and the reason I was there, was every pregnat woman's worst nightmare coming true. I was called back, and soon saw my doctor. He said he was sorry to see me for this reason. He asked me if i understood what was happening I explained that I did, and he assured me it was nothing I had done wrong, and I cried again. My mom asked why the ER hadn't just told me, and he had no idea. He was sympathic, and explained my options, I could wait it out, and let my body get rid of the pregnancy (which could take 1-3 weeks, or I could have the DNC to have it surgically removed, I chose the DNC, I wanted it over with. He scheduled it to do it a week from that day. And I went home, and started to let my family and best friend know that I had lost the baby. It was so hard! That day I started having the cramps. I was working throught them until Sunday morning (3 days later) My body went into labor and I was having severe pains every 5-6 minutes, this lasted about 4 hours, My husband could my boss and explained what was happeneing and my boss took me of the schedule for the whole week. I was starting to feel a little better, my parents brought dinner over and they stayed an hour or 2 and left. Then around 8 p.m. I began to have the most painful pain I have ever had that I can remember, and it wasnt't going away, Dave was at work and so I called my parent they live down the road and said they would come over. Before they got there I had the feeling that I needed to go to the bathroom, I ran in there, and I passed what was the yolk sack, it was about the size of my fist. My parents got there and I instantly felt relief, my dad left after he was sure I was ok, and my mom stayed until my husband came home. Then Tuesday I went in to have my beta tested. The next day they canceled my DNC because my beta was extremely low, and there was no need for it, I didn't feel that way, I was still having pains, and still bleeding, so now i'm having to wait it out, and I have to have my beta checked in 2 weeks to make sure it is normal.
I start work this sunday, and i'm slowly getting through this. I think i take 2 steps forward then I take a step back. As soon as my body has healed and the miscarriage is over, I believe it will be easier to get through. Then after 1 normal cycle after I am healed, we can start trying again. I will always have the fear of miscarrying again, but I won't let that stop Dave and I from becoming parents. I know we will one day.

R.I.P LULU

So earlier this year, lulu got sick. But she got better. Well sometime in late June early August lulu was acting funny. After Dave and I moved to our own home in May, lulu would follow (RUN) us to our house everytime she saw us. Well we have always suspected that she had hip problems, well then she coudn't walk, she would follow us home and wouldnt be able to walk back let alone move. We would have to take her back to my parents house, then she stopped following us, barking, and stopped eating! We tried everything from buying different food, forcing water down her throat with a turkey baster, along with pedialite, and giving her adult asprin, it got so bad she couldnt even move to potty. She would be laying in her pee. She looked horrible! It was so awful!!! I have never had an animal i loved so much, and to see her go through this, it was just heart wrenching! So after a couple of weeks of hoping she would get better. Dave and i finally took her to the vet on pioneer day. The vet told us she had severe arthritis in her back knees and hips. He said the condition was so bad, that it couldnt be fixed, he said pain pills would be the only option, and that since the aspirin hadnt really been working, he wasnt to hopeful, along with the fact that she was at least 14 years old. so I had to make the decision on what to do. It was SO HARD, but i couldn't bare to see her in so much pain, she wasn't happy, how could she be when she couldn't even be a dog, she just sat there. I had to have her put down, they did it that day, and i had to say goodbye to the best dog i have ever had. I just broke down crying at the fact that we had to say good bye! Dave was emotional as well. They told me i shouldn't watch, but i didn't want to leave her alone! I said good bye and immediatly regreted being in that room, I left quickly and went outside, and cried my eyes out. Dave stayed in there with her till it was done. I havent cried so much in my life! I felt awful, like i was a bad person, that i was the executioner! I know that seems silly, but i still can't help it! I miss her so much, and cry still about it, and i dont know how i can ever get another dog, cuz i don't ever want to do this again. I feel bad for anyone who has to do this. I just feel better by remembering that she is no longer in pain. R.I.P LULU!!!!

From Summer to Fall

So we had a wonderful time with Dave sisters. It was so fun to be with family. I am no longer in young womans, My new calling in church, is the ward website leader and im in charge of the ward Newsletter. I am just trying to get use to it all. Dave and I are both still working. My sister and her family recently moved back here to MO. We have been spending alot of time with them and my parents, since they live with them. We are looking forward to the holidays, This is our favorite time of the year. We love decorating for Christmas! We just love everything about it, from apple cider to Christmas music. Things are going great and just enjoying life.

It's been awhile....

So It has been a long time since i have updated... Like 5 months or so. SORRY! So Dave and I now live in our own home. We rent for a very good price a month. It's a 3 bedroom and 2 bath. WE LOVE IT! AND the best part is my parents are my neighbors! we live like a half a mile away! Its awesome! We have been doing a lot to the inside and out to make it our own. We enjoy it. We are very settled in. Some more great news is that Dave got on full-time at work!!!! This i am very excited for. We have been waiting for this for almost 2 years! We will have insurance in the middle of October. Then we are going to try and have a baby then, hopefully by the end of the year i will be pregnant. (That is the best scenario.) WE CAN'T WAIT TO BE PARENTS!!! Dave and I will be married for 4 years this october 14th. We can't believe how time flies! I still am working as a waitress at pizza hut. Things coming up is that Two of Dave's sisters are coming out to visit next week! We are excited to see them. I just went to girls camp as a leader, it was fun... BUT it rained almost the entire time. aNyWoO.... That is all that is new with us!

New HairDo

Here is my new hair cut! I have been wanting to "trim" my hair for a while now, and Dave said that he wanted my hair shorter, and being husband pleaser, i did it! I really like it. It is starting to grow on me. I havent had my hair cut this short since 6th grade. And I was really regreting right after I saw all my hair on the floor. But Dave loves it, so thats all that matters. It is a new me.

My new Kitchen

So My mom found some cabinets for a really good price on criagslist, and we got them. SO then we bought a countertop, sink, and faucet, and My dad, Dave and Rich Baker (a family friend) put it all together. It is so nice to have a sink! We can do dishes downstairs now, We love it and are thrilled to have it all.

ABC's

My ABCs:
A - Age: 21 (Almost 22)
B-Bed size: King
C - Chore you hate: Dishes!
D - Dog's name: Lulu but she is really my parents dog...
E - Essential start your day item: Make-up
F - Favorite color:Everybody knows its GREEN, cuz i was born on St. Patricks Day!
G - Gold or Silver: I wear more Gold BUT i were silver jewlrey.
H - Height: 5'6 (Shortest in the family)
I - I am: Happy that i have an amazing husband!
J - Job: Full Time waitress at Pizza Hut. At least I have a job!
K - Kids: 1- None yet.. but someday.
L - Living arrangements: Dave and I and my parents upstairs... yes we live in a complete basement, 2 bed 1 bath and now a full kitchen!
M - Mom's name: Janet, but she goes by Jan.
N - Nicknames: Ash
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: YUP, i broke both bones in my left arm and had to have surgery and i stayed overnight,
P - Pet Peeve: When the toilet paper in under and not over.
Q - Quote from a movie: Lightning Mcqueen "your thunder, you know cuz thunder comes after LIGHTNING" "Kchou" "Kchou"
R - Right or left handed: righty
S - Siblings: 4
T - Time you wake up: Between 10-11 a.m. Pathetic i know...
U- Unique thing about your car: It is currently in the shop
V - Vegetable you dislike: Green peppers, they are nasty.
W - Ways you run late: DOnt get up in time
X - X-rays you've had: dental, arm, and does a CAT scan count?
Y - Yummy food you make: Lasagna
Z - Zoo favorite: ST. Louis (It's huge and FREE)

I tag: Christine Boren, and Hillary Boren, and Brandee Johnson